Scandap F&A

Sadly, I still love this girl to death… I had this beautiful final post planned. Probably the most symbolic thing I would have ever written in my life. No one would have understood what it was - except her of course - but I don’t think it’s worth it because I actually did all of this for her and now I don’t think it means that much to her anymore… I wish she could just tell me, but I doubt she will. So for my sanity, because I literally enter some next form of depression when I write about her, I’m just going to put a final post. If you want to keep following me… follow 18andcounting.tumblr.com    <——- This is where I’ll continue to write about whatever crosses my mind.

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I hopped on a bus this weekend

I wish you could do the same

I went to Hamilton

You should head to my brain

Take the scenic route

Look out the window

Don’t stop till you’ve seen the truth

Realize there’s only one way to go

Draw a map of your travels

Incorporate landmarks

Describe the animals

Don’t forget where it starts

Draw every left,

Right and curve

Look at what’s left

And resist the urge

To withhold all emotion

Look at your page

Do you understand the notion

That my love will never age

What does it look like to you?

Most would say it’s just a name,

I know that’s something you won’t do

Do you realize it will always be the same?

I hope you can understand

If I could I would leave you be

My life would change; become much more bland

I can’t, don’t you see?

I want you to hop on a bus

That travels through my mind

Believe every sight, utilize all your trust

See that what I feel is one of a kind

These words are all I have

We both know I’m spineless

So all day I act

But my words, especially the kindest

Are who I really am.

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I ask my thoughts

to dance around your heart

so you can feel how hard I have fought

for our love right from the start.

Now you only come alive in my words

and it feels like our souls

are millions of miles apart

not being able to touch.

I close my eyes and invite you

into my dreams

welcome you to a world

where you are mine,

a world where I can breathe again,

a world without pain,

a world that comes alive

with each stroke of my pen

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My heart beats in rhythm
to the pace of footsteps
My soul sings a song
to the melody of your voice
My mind paints a life
inspired by your beauty
I breathe, think and live for you
your departure would cause
instantaneous death
only reversible
by your reviving kiss

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I never wanted you to leave,
in fact, I would’ve done anything to
make you stay but you know how that
saying goes,

If you love someone set them free.

So I did.
Still, didn’t mean it came effortlessly.
Your words crawling into the empty spaces
you’d so often settle into in bed,
tugging on the strings that
brought memories to life as your image
became so vivid.
Your scent slipping in through the vents
and lingering through a room filled with
regrets as the faint sound of your
laughter echoed down dark halls that
captured the essence of all that
I feel…
haunting me as I constantly pulled the
trigger in my head, releasing caps full
of images that sink into my flesh and
carve themselves into my bone…
all for the sake of never forgetting.
Something I can’t bring myself to do.
For our love is permanent,
taking residence within the chambers
of a heart that will only ever beat for you.

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I’ve sold my soul
To stop your pain
Given everything I had
For you
You make me feel like no other has
I knew the meaning of love
When you first grabbed my hand
I meant it when I said
You are everything I have

thank you girls (: I really appreciate it. to my followers, follow these blogs they are absolutely amazing. I have one last post on this blog; follow 18andcounting.tumblr.com please and thank you. 

itsbeen-awhile:

If the sea brings me to you

Promise me you won’t question it

You’ll leave behind your old life

Tell her you’re sorry

But you have to go

Then take me by the hand

Float with me in the sea

We’ll go wherever it leads

Let it control our fate

It doesn’t matter where we go

For as long as I’m with you

I’ll be okay

I’m hoping, my love

You’ll feel the same

my sentiments exactly… if it were about a girl :D

I have ten posts left in this blog… that’s not to say that the things im writing about will cease to exist or anything, just that I’m moving elsewhere. I have my reasons why… some of you know them. but anyway ten last posts and then my writing will move to:

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Pleaseeeee feel free to send me collabs or any suggestions or cues or anything.

11:46 PM

They say only Jesus could walk on water

And yet, there he is, walking on air

Cuz he caught a glimpse

Of that smile right there

Although his heart shatters

Every single time

he reminisces of when

‘that smile was mine’

he still stands here

Tall and proud

Combating the urge

To yell out loud

And viciously dismember

This rambunctious crowd

“When I get to you

All bruised and battered

Ill express myself;

Brains will be splattered

 In your mind

The vibrant colors

Painted with soft words

Will be unlike any others

This proclamation

Is not just any lover’s”

and now he,

is on his knees

he thought of painting the sky

with the seas

you were once a want

now you’re his need

but his words ran away

at an amazing speed

he just lays there

and you watch him bleed.